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Friday, September 23, 2005
IF ONLY YOU COULD SEE WHAT I SEE i don't like the word whine. and these are only my concerns. i have no intention to whine. i'm not even sure what whine exactly means. oh okay, i sure do but i am not sure if the contents of this blog can be categorised as whinings. i get upset when people point out that i'm whining. sometimes i even wonder if i do have the capability to twist things into something else that is not there. i also get upset when people tell me that i'm twisting my words. do i really? i don't know. maybe i didn't mean to. it's just how i see things are often different from how other people see them. this i know as my sister and i are always discussing on our ways of viewing things. we often view things in so many different sides/ways. and we can always turn a blind eye on the side we do not wish to see or comprehend. i also don't like being looked at and being a subject of a discussion. moreoever if it's not exactly a good one. but one thing that i've always hated since school is, being made fun of. i don't like being made fun of by guys especially. moreoever, by those i call friends. moreover, when it has something to do with appearance. i believe that we shouldn't be making fun of others because of their appearance as it's what God has given them. i'm sure that i've mentioned that i've always believed in what comes around goes around. i remember myself crying whenever i got home from school because i was being teased at school (lower secondary). i remember a boy named Rashid who would constantly pick on me. he'd find whatsoever he could find on me or was related to me and teased me the whole day. it was a living hell. still, i enjoyed school. i think. but yeah. and being a twin doesn't help much either. people would constantly try to differenciate us and make comparisons. frankly speaking, it's rather annoying. i've always been a person who'd say *almost* everything that's on my mind. and often i make mistakes on saying things that i realise later on, shouldn't have been said. normally, these are the things spewed when i'm angry or upset. and i talk a lot. way too much. and i've also been told off for talking too much (by my sister usually). honestly, it hurts a bit. because i was so excited to talk and then i was asked to shut up. and somehow, i feel guilty of feeling the way i usually do when people do the abovementioned things. funny. i feel guilty of feeling upset. i think i'm feeling rather melancholic today. so yeah, now it's time to face these things i don't like. instead of being so sensitive, i'll try to like them. and i'll try to talk as less as possible. (haha) yeah. - posted by wildtenderness @ 08:59 pm
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...and so she is nervous all the time. forgetful. clumsy. KELAM KABUT sometimes. lefhanded. not relaxed. loves making vows to herself. always repeats the same vows or promises. has tendency to repeat the same thing over and over again. annoying sometimes. funny when she wishes to be. loves to exaggerate. SO not like her twin sister. when depressed, she's just soo depressed you could get infected as well. when she's happy, you'd think something is wrong with her brain. when hyperactive, you'd just want to shove the sleeping pills down her throat. if you live on her street..you might get lucky and hear her shrieks and screams at the very least once a day. not that quiet like most people think she is. shrinking violet. loves to say funny (read: weird) things. SO tak tau malu sometimes (that's when she TOTALLY forgets about manners). loves to observe people. quiet when you put her in a group of loud people. outspoken at times. her stupidity outshines sometimes. a sucker for sweet people. fears public speaking. doesn't like being teased, but because of that, she's always being teased by her friends.... to NADIA and friends, nabby is begging you to keep everything that you read in here to yourself. and please don't go around reciting my words from this blog and annoy the *tuut* out of me. this is just an outlet of expressing my anger, resentments, happiness, confusion as well as other emotions. you know me too well that i CAN so kill you if you do that =p so please don't make fun of me yeah? and you people also know that some of the things i say in this blog are not entirely true. nyeeahahaha. in addition to that, some of you even know how much i like to say things that don't even make sense or related to the things i wish/intend to say..hehe...so there you go ;) feedbacks are cool, so if you have anything to say, just click at the 'comments' and say what you have to say. thank you ;) **this blog is best viewed in IE and HIDEOUS in Mozilla. friendster photos: FRIENDS. PEOPLE photos: CUTENESS!
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