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Friday, September 30, 2005
IT'S GONE TOO FAR, WE CAN'T REWIND i do not know where to start. i'm in a rather subdued mood. but thank God my head is pretty much clear at the moment. it's been a hectic as well as of course, crazy week ;) i have finally confessed (sorta) to the poor guy. he must've freaked out like hell i bet. but sorrylah, i didn't call that upon myself either. i didn't mean to scare him or whatsoever, i don't want to get all perasan and get hurt again so yeah i had to do what i did. i was scaring myself too. but now that everything's cleared up, i feel rather glad that i managed to find the guts in me and ask him. but of course, i do feel a bit upset..because in truth, this feelings i have for him are somewhat nurtured. he's been too kind. nabby's next mission : learn to get used to sweet words and people's kindness hohohoho. *wink wink* so now, nabby is not in the crazy-state anymore. well, atleast i'm saner and calmer compared to the last few weeks where my emotional state hadn't been in a good condition. i was going up and down (tapi bukan ke nabila selalu macam itu? eheh)..it drove me crazy. now it's time to forget and be normal ;) but yeah, thankfully..he dealt with it like an adult. eeei, i surely couldn't stand if he acted like budak-budak..sheesh, thank God, thank God. and the weird thing is, i've expected the answer. i think i do so have a sixth sense or whatsoever you wanna call it tee-hee ;p so i was really prepared, i'd say =) oh well, my second time of being rejected OH-SO-NICELY. how sweet. thank you anyway for telling me that i'm the nicest girl you've ever known (though i know that is SO not true muahahah) and thank you for saying that i'm a special friend (truth is, you don't have to say that to make me feel less miserable. i do so understand what you're trying to say) after all, like someone said to me : the second time around makes you wiser. or something like that. so now i'm good at reading things between the lines kot. congrats nabby! ;) jaja now have a blog on friendster. i wish i can blog there too. maybe one of these days..who knows? but i need a new computer then, as my computer is having a problem with viewing God-knows-what-it-is resulting in me unable to view the 'update-blog' page. *a long sigh* oh you know what? i just received an sms from kak anis saying that comel has just given birth to 3 kittens ooooohmeeeeegooodneesssss!!! i can't wait to see comel's kittens!!! they must be ohsocute!! gee...sian comel..must be all tired and sakit after the delivery kan?? i wanna go back to hostel and usap2 comel lama-lama...aaaa, there's this warm feeling inside my tummy when i read the sms from kak anis. sian comel, yesterday comel has been ngiau-ing(what is mengiau in english ek?) nonstop and she's been trying to enter our room for God-knows-how-many-times!! i know that she wants to find a place to give birth to her babies..and we all know she wants it to be in kak nuha's locker hehehe ;) too comfy in there kot *wink wink* oh comel, wait until i come back okaaayyy???!!! oh nadia sms-ed me yesterday. poor thing, she had the most embarassing moment in her life : she forgot the bacaan in sujud when asked by her ustaz during her hafazan. she said, she went totally blank..and forgot everything. she couldn't recall a single thing even after her ustaz gave her a head start (by reciting the starting of the bacaan)...she only managed to stare at that ustaz helplessly. and she said, she was sooooooo embarassed tahap *insert all the vulgar words here*. awww...i know it must have very embarassing as the ustaz must've thought she doesn't pray. haih..the most embarassing thing that could happen to you is when people think wrongly of you. takpelah nadia, so long God knows that you pray, you know that you pray and we all know that you pray...that's ok. i know it's humiliating, but what's done is done. we are all very nervous people..so yeah..what to do... this week, i had 2 bad case of sakit perut. which i do not know if it's my gastric attacking or something else. and my dad, he was somewhat worried as he noticed that i've become rather thin. i suppose i am, as yesterday i stood in front of the mirror and gee..my hands are like 2 sticks on each side of my body and i can see my ribs are showing a little. and i've been losing appetites too..so yeah, tonight, i have an appointment with the doctor and do the scanning or whatsoever. i think need multivitamins or appetite booster or whatsoever. i'm scaring myself too! oh nabila, you are so unhealthy!! oh i'm thinking of moving to a new blog, but i don't know..i'm thinking of starting anew like always haha..but i'm not so sure about that as i've been busy and most importantly, where to move?? oh well, this is what happens when one gets bored oh-so-easily! ;) - posted by wildtenderness @ 10:51 am
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...and so she is nervous all the time. forgetful. clumsy. KELAM KABUT sometimes. lefhanded. not relaxed. loves making vows to herself. always repeats the same vows or promises. has tendency to repeat the same thing over and over again. annoying sometimes. funny when she wishes to be. loves to exaggerate. SO not like her twin sister. when depressed, she's just soo depressed you could get infected as well. when she's happy, you'd think something is wrong with her brain. when hyperactive, you'd just want to shove the sleeping pills down her throat. if you live on her street..you might get lucky and hear her shrieks and screams at the very least once a day. not that quiet like most people think she is. shrinking violet. loves to say funny (read: weird) things. SO tak tau malu sometimes (that's when she TOTALLY forgets about manners). loves to observe people. quiet when you put her in a group of loud people. outspoken at times. her stupidity outshines sometimes. a sucker for sweet people. fears public speaking. doesn't like being teased, but because of that, she's always being teased by her friends.... to NADIA and friends, nabby is begging you to keep everything that you read in here to yourself. and please don't go around reciting my words from this blog and annoy the *tuut* out of me. this is just an outlet of expressing my anger, resentments, happiness, confusion as well as other emotions. you know me too well that i CAN so kill you if you do that =p so please don't make fun of me yeah? and you people also know that some of the things i say in this blog are not entirely true. nyeeahahaha. in addition to that, some of you even know how much i like to say things that don't even make sense or related to the things i wish/intend to say..hehe...so there you go ;) feedbacks are cool, so if you have anything to say, just click at the 'comments' and say what you have to say. thank you ;) **this blog is best viewed in IE and HIDEOUS in Mozilla. friendster photos: FRIENDS. PEOPLE photos: CUTENESS!
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